I am feeling my mortality more than ever at this moment, yet I feel I can’t talk about it with anyone since it’s a tough subject and it hits too close to home.
Sara, from Gitzen Girl, is dying. Her body is shutting down. Her ankylosing spondylitis is killing her, not so slowly anymore. Sara and I share names. We share a love of reading blogs and blogging. Sara and I share a love of dogs. Sara and I both have an autoimmune disease called ankylosing spondylitis and she’s dying, but I’m not.
I have a hollow pit in my stomach. Sara’s reality could be my reality.
Last week coming home from the gastroenterologist (for my elevated liver function tests) I had a real, head-on epiphany. If I died, my family would be ok. God would be with them. It was a very odd sensation…like God was actually talking to me. The clarity was crystal clear.
Even though I am a Christian and know that an earthly death means the most amazing Heavenly reward, death is still a very tough subject for me. I have a hard time facing my own mortality and the mortality of my dear friends and family.
Please join me in prayer for Sara’s Heaven-bound journey and for peace for her friends and family.
Sarah:)
How incredibly heartbreaking. So sorry to hear your liver stuff is up. Hopefully this is a blip from the meds? Faith or no faith, mortality is scary stuff. When you're dealing with what you are each day, it is just that much more real. But I feel it strangely enough makes me, at least, that much more grateful for each day, too. Faith helps, but don't beat yourself up if it's still overwhelming. One thankful day at a time. Hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteI read about Sara today. So very said. I did not know that you had that too. Praying for Sara, praying for you.
ReplyDeleteI will be praying for Sara and for you.
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